Courage when someone walks away
When they glanced at that fruit
What did You feel?
Did Your heart tremble,
Your Spirit squeal?
Did You want to jump out and shout
‘Don’t do that!’
Did you want to squash that tree
Down to the ground
And pull out those roots and throw it far
Over the sea and into
Outer space?
When they listened to lies
Tied their hearts up in knots
Did You just want to hide
Did You feel the first spot
Of questioning distrust
Did it surprise You the pain
You suddenly felt
Did it hit you like rocks
To the heart
When you found out
What you already knew:
The only one You could depend on was
You?
When they held out their hand
And took the first bite
You knew of their weakness
But did you think they just might
Have lasted a bit longer in your
Perfect paradise
In the place you had designed
And spent eternity dreaming
Of exploring
And walking
And holding of hands
The marvels laid out
In laundry-fresh lands?
When they had swallowed that fruit
The sweetness gone from their lips
Did Your heart take in all You had lovingly
Beautifully, carefully created
And want to make it all
Instantly, spontaneously combust?
Did your heart ache so much You stood and You suffered
Right there, right then?
Did all of creation gasp?
Did You?
Because love suffers greatly, love suffers greatly.
photo by Shatteredmyth
The feeling of unity ripped from Your dreams
One heart and one passion
Now Yours and theirs
Decay setting in and
On top of it all
Those beautiful bodies
Of those beautiful children
Are hiding away
Heavy with guilt
Did you think about turning away right then?
Is that why it took You until evening to come and walk in the garden again?
Did You have to let Your anger subside as
You chose to reach out and love
In spite of the turned backs
And hidden skin
Suddenly deemed not good enough to be in
Hiding from intimacy with You
Now fear of Your touch
Covered up with leaves that told of so much
Was killing those animals a vent for your anger?
Did harming Your creation turn Your cheeks soggy wet?
Did dressing Your children with new robes ease some of the pain?
When they let You come close to dress them again?
And my heart that breaks at the pain of rejection
The desire each person has to go their own direction
I only know how to look to My Maker
Asking myself at Your example:
Will I embrace the divine patience
You had on that day
Knowing that Full Restoration
Is not too far away?
“that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings...”
Thank you for joining me today as I process some feelings of rejection. Whenever I feel something deeply I wonder where it is an opportunity to know Him and experience the fellowship of His suffering and that's what birthed this poem.
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