In the last few weeks I would say I have had the foundations re-done in my faith house.  It is not that I ever desired or even thought about turning my back on God, but I found myself in a some very uncomfortable soul renovations.  After I had the miscarriage I felt responsible for the death of the baby.  Whether that is true or not is really irrelevant and besides the point - I wasn’t purposefully trying to kill my child, but what it meant is that I struggled with an un-shruggable feeling of guilt for a while...